Wednesday, November 23, 2011

10 Things I have learned in the past 10 years!

Yeah, I was chilling for the first 12 years of my life :)

1. Music is powerful. Experience it.
Music, according to me, is the best invention by mankind. It can heal the pain (Link). It can make you smile (Link). It can make you cry (Link). It can make you dance (Link). It can inspire you(Link). And, often it will tell you the truth in the funniest way possible (Link). In short, it is powerful. Find the music you love and devote time listening to it. It makes life better.

2. Humans & their obsession of controlling things
After years of noticing people and their actions, I have come to a conclusion, we love to control everything. This leads to frustration and depression. We tend to control things that are not in our control, and as expected, we fail to control 'em. It is time we take charge of our lives and only control things that you can actually control. Leave the rest for someone up there to take care of. She often does a pretty good job at keeping your interests in her mind. Try it.

3. Television has had more adverse effects than benefits
Since I discussed the best invention done by mankind, it is only fair I discuss the worst too. And no, its not television, its the television industry. It's the media. The media who loves to emphasize on everything negative going on around the world. Not their fault either, because it sells. Doesn't matter whose fault it is, what matters is how we are affected by the power of television. Like music, television is pretty powerful too, especially because of it's reach. However, this power, in my opinion, is being misused. The channels today are filled with reality shows that can be synonyms to soft porn. That is not my problem, my problem is, the reality shows are not actually Real! That is my problem. Also, the news! Please perform a small task the next time you watch news. Count the number of negative stories and the number of positive stories that are aired in a span of 1 hr. I'd put my bets on 7:1. This gives us a negative impression about the world, it makes us believe that everything around is messed up. The reality is, its not! Go out there, enjoy the beauty! The couch and that television are subtracting life out of you physically and mentally.

4. The Formula for Success (Literally)

Number of times you fall down + 1 = Number of times you get up
Follow this rule, and you shall lead a happier and better life.

5. Toughest two letter word to say - 'NO'
Everyone of us has been there, some more than the others! What I have learned is that NO is often the toughest thing to say to people, but what I have not been able to learn yet is why is the case! It is important that one learns to say 'No'.. Otherwise we risk getting overwhelmed, we risk relationships, we risk people's trust in our abilities. We often bite more then we can chew, and that is obviously a problem. A big one. So, next time around, when you colleague asks you if you can do something, or if your friends asks for your help, think for moment, and decide if you can really do justice to their ask from you. If you cannot, it is time to pull the trigger and say No. It is better to say No than accept a task and say you weren't able to do it.

6. Passion knows no boundaries
It really doesn't. Find your passion, find your calling, and you will experience the life of abundance. Yeah, I sound like someone who has experienced it. Probably not to the fullest extent, but I have in various small situations in my life. All that matters is passion! Everything else takes a back seat. Your education, your language, your personality, your color. Everything.

7. Power - Another Human Obsession
Evey now and then I see people struggling to gain more power over others. Every now and then I loathe these people. It's just me, and I believe that the world could be a better place if we there was no such thing as power. Relationships are ruined, jobs are lost, countries go on war, just for one simple thing: Power. Get over it, live a life with less power and more happiness!

8. Intuition & It's magic
Nurture your intuition. It will help you make the right decisions during tough times. Trust your intuition, it will often come off right! It's magical, and a magic that you are born with. Dig in deep and uncover it.

9. The most important thing in life...
Do what you love. No matter what people tell you, no matter which career is better than the other. No matter what the analysts predict as the future, do what you love in the present. Thats what matters. Who knows if you'll even be alive to see the future the analysts have predicted. The only way you can do justice to your life is to do what you love and be with people who you love. The single most important thing in life.

10. Love..
I'll need another 10 years to figure this one out. When I do, you'll know!

Love. Harmony. Peace. Humor

Friday, August 12, 2011

9 Reasons why the Kid inside you should never die!

As we grow old, we focus so much on being matured that we kill the kid inside us. We think pretending to be all serious is the way to go to impress people and tell them about your maturity. That's not how you impress people, impress someone by your work, smile, humor and your simple approach to life. Don't kill the kid inside in order to achieve maturity, let the kid inside you take you to the path of maturity. After all, she was the one who learned the hardest skills without being all serious, skills like eating, walking, running, cycling!

Keep a small part of your heart for the kid inside you because it is the best way to keep a small part of your heart soft, receptive and always ready to love again. It's the way to survive and live through the pressures of growing up.

1. The Kid never gives up.
Ever witnessed the infinite attempts that the kid makes while she learns to walk? Falls almost a gazillion times, but never gives up! Imagine if you could apply that to your adult life. You're smart enough to understand the impact!

2. The Kid makes people smile.
Making people around you smile is often the most amazing thing you can feel. The kid often makes people smile with her innocence, her charm, her smile! A smile can often induce a smile.

3. The Kid forgives and forgets.
The Kid never holds any grudges for more than a day, she forgives and she forgets. Holding grudges is probably the worst you could do with the small amount of time you get to live. Life is too short to hate anyone, and everyone makes mistakes. The kid in you helps you in overlooking those mistakes.

4. The Kid loves easily & hates rarely.
The Kid falls in love easily because she doesn't know any other way. Being in love is probably the best you could do with the small amount of time you get to live. Life is too short and not falling in love time and again is the worst you can do. Fall in love, sign up for vulnerability and you will realize that not many will hurt you. Your parents won't, your siblings won't, your friends won't, your partner won't, your pets won't. So why exactly should we give up the feeling of being in love just because a relationship or two didn't work out?

5. The Kid doesn't take NO for an answer.
As we grow up, we start working towards our dreams. It requires a lot of hard work, and courage to choose a path that has not been traveled and achieve the dreams. While we set out on that path, we often stop midway because of 'circumstance'. In fact, some of us never take action to achieve those dreams. However, for a kid, he almost always gets his way through (If its reasonable) by not taking NO for an answer. I agree that this might seem like recipe for disaster when the kid grows up, however, if this trait is channeled in the right direction, it can help you achieve the goals you set for yourself. Imagine if you just didn't take NO for an answer and worked towards getting through by hook or by crook. I like the idea! Decide for yourself.

6. The Kid trusts easily.
As we grow up and pretend to be 'matured', we often find ourselves questioning our trust for people close to us and find it extremely hard to trust new set people. However, I believe, trust is an integral part of living a happy life. Sometimes you just have trust and let got. Other times, your still have to trust! A kid trusts easily, and her trust might be broken by people around her, but, she won't stop trusting new people. If she did, no one would ever have a best friend, right? And that is also the reason why most of our best friends are made early in life. Won't it be cool to find another best friend at the age of 32? I think it will be cool, in fact, super cool!

7. The Kid applies imagination before logic.
Today, we plan our actions and execute our actions only if they logical. We dream logical things. We set logical goals. Everything we do in our career has to pass the logic test. However, IMAGINE that you apply imagination before you apply logic. Imagine that your dreams are made through your imagination without much focus on logic. Now, I am not saying everything you imagine would come true but it will help you innovate and be creative. Sometimes your dreams can be achieved even if they defy logic, and the feeling of achieving those dreams cannot be matched by any drug in this world!

8. The Kid expresses her emotions.
There is a basic rule to life: You have to express your emotions somehow. The kid chooses the best way and lets it out instead of keeping it in. We grow up and learn to box our emotions because of the fear of being judged. Your best friends won't judge you! Your parent won't judge you. All they will do is be with you and correct you if they think you are wrong. If you never expressed, they would never know. Unless they are mind readers. Don't bottle it up, find someone to let it go!

9. The kid believes in learning
As we kid, we learn the most and learn a new thing almost everyday. As we grow old, we tend to focus so much on the job at hand that we forget the importance of learning something new everyday.

Learn. Laugh. Love. Live
Believe in learning, believe in laughter, believing in loving and you will certainly start believing in Living.




Friday, July 29, 2011

Life in College vs (No) Life after College

So, after thinking for hours about what to write, I decided to take a stab at the changes in my life over the course of past two months.

Its been more than two months since I went through the transition of being a irresponsible, careless, always free, irregular schedule college student to someone whose responsibility is to be responsible, careful, fixed schedule worker. In these two months, I have learned a lot about myself, people around me, and general human psychology.

So here are some few key differences between School & Work which you will better off knowing before hand -
1. Remember the days when we did everything in this world to avoid a 8 am class? Remember when we slept till 10-11 because we didn't classes that day? I am sorry to break this out to you, but, you have been scheduled for 8 am classes for the rest of you career. Well almost! No more choosing and avoiding classes, no more being in bed till noon. Get up & get going!

2. You thought school work was intense? You thought meeting deadlines was the worst thing ever? Think about this - You at least knew a week in advance before anything was due. When you are at work, you get to know hours in advance of when something is due. Now, that may not sound that bad, but, we as students, are now used to procrastinating so much in college that its almost impossible to get started without procrastinating & 'getting mentally prepared'

3. Say goodbye to afternoon naps & fiesta lunches!

4. While you are saying goodbye to those two, make sure you bid adios to random fun filled allnighters too. And obviously thirsty thursdays!

5. Ever heard about schedules when you were in School? If not, then you will soon know what I mean! There might be times it will be hard to differentiate between two work days!

6. Oh, remember those days when you had to take the pain of getting your formal clothes ready for a career fair? Well, be ready to take that pain on a regular basis now!

7. At some point, you might also ask yourself that how did you survive before breakfast in college? And, when you do think about that, just try and count the number of days you were awake in time for breakfast when you were in college.

Now that you might be already shit scared to start working, there is one huge difference between School and Work..One that can offset all the disadvantages already mentioned.

You get paid to work while you pay to go School. Money. Moolah. Its an addiction. Makes the impossible, possible!

"You must have been warned against letting the golden hours slip by. Yes, but some of them are golden only because we let them slip."

No points for guessing the Golden hours of your life.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Letter to God

Dear Story Writer/ Destiny Developer/ Life Controller,

Do you believe in fairy tale endings?
I like to believe that you do.

If you don't, then reconsider the situation in hand -

A boy who started playing the game in the winter of 1989, and stood against one of the most deadly bowling attacks of that time(Pakistan). He took blows on his body, bled from his nose but didn't refuse to continue and help the country. A boy who made the journey toward manhood while playing the beautiful game of cricket.

21 years later, he is about to play his last few matches for the country. In these 21 years, he has broken almost every record that a batsman can dream of, gave nightmares to bowlers, helped the country win umpteen number of times and still remained as humble as a legend can ever be.

For years, he was the lone bullock who carried the cart which had 10 other Indians. For years, he scored centuries only to see his teammates negate the effect. For years, he believed in the team and gave his all to help the country win matches. And in all these years, never did he ever complaint about the lack of support or the criticism he received for not helping the country win.

However, after all these years, he now has a team that is CAPABLE of supporting him. He is not the lone bullock anymore.

Now is the time for his dream to come true. A dream he had for the past 21 years. He lost his father in the process of achieving it once, but didn't give up the dream. On other times, carried the team till the finish line, only to see them give up just before the end!

He gets a shot at fulfilling his dream, one more time! One last time. And for what he has done for the country, it is only fair that his teammates repay him by supporting him fulfilling his dream. We can be rest assured he will be at his best, all we do need is some average cricket from the other 10 players.

It is time for us, the crowd of 1 billion people, to pray for him and our country. It is time for the universe to conspire and grant the wish of 1 billion people. It is time for the story writer, the life controller, the destiny developer to make this a fairy tale ending.
It is time for the God of Cricket to receive a a gift from the God of this world.
It is time for little master to achieve what he truly deserves.

IT is time for the showdown!




Monday, March 7, 2011

Hey You! Yes, You.

You make me smile and smile so often that I hate to say goodbye!

You make me laugh, and laugh so often that I hate to be alone
You make me think, and think so often that I hate to have met you so late
You make my ears red, and red so often that I believe in emotions again
You make me strong, and strong so often that I almost love to be weak sometimes
You make me understand, and understand so often that I thank god for blessing me with an angel

You make me believe in the small joys of life, and do it so often that I often feel I missed out on so much in life
You make me share, and share so often that I feel light like a butterfly
You kindle me, and kindle me so often that I feel inspired
You make me love, and love so often that I believe in love again


You make me smile and smile so often that I hate to say goodbye! ♥

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Brilliance, I say!

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."
Bob Marley

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Even if You Don't Read This, You'll Survive

This is a guest post written by EternallyBuzzing

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Things that life has taught me so far.

How to deal with “Why me” situations

Everybody has those, no one has a life so meticulously sorted that nothing but good happens. So every time you have the aforementioned feeling, let’s look in the direction of Charlie Sheen. Lucky now, aren’t we. That guy has some issues.So it’s imperative you move past them. Stronger, brushing the dust off.


How to handle the “nobody loves me” moments.

Not true. People love Lady Gaga too, and she is a FREAK of nature. Be yourself. Someone somewhere will love you despite your imperfections. In some cases they’ll not even hold your perfection against you.


Dance like no one’s watching.

When you let go of your inhibitions, you can really know what you’re capable of. And even if you wind up making a fool of yourself, heck, at least you won’t spend the rest of your life in anxiety. In the context of dancing, it’s way too much fun.


Telling someone how you really feel.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUe3sbtqI2Q

Enough said. Why would you want to miss out on the opportunity of having something possibly wonderful just cause your rationale won’t accept it?


Pets are awesome listeners.

They don’t judge. Their heart is pure. And they have no cruel intentions. They can’t communicate in a language that you can understand and their feelings are latent but their love is real.

P.s : So DD, it’s time you learn to love them :)


Music heals.

There’s a song for every mood. So if nothing else helps, music will.


Being open minded is crucial.

You can possibly lose out on the best things in life by being a judge of everything around. Open your mind, and you’ll really live. Open your mind to the eating food you’ve never eaten, listening to the songs you’ve never heard, DANCE if you’ve never before, make friends with people who you think could never be your friends and living the life without boundaries.


Chocolate helps.

Science has proved it. I was never the one to disagree. But for all you non believers, proof that God loves us.


Smiling is contagious.

I disregarded this as the greatest myth of all time till I realized how true it is. You smile at me ( i won’t think you’re crazy) I’ll smile at some one else and the someone else does it to someone else. It’s contagiously awesome.


Snap it up.

Just because I couldn’t come up with something clever, doesn’t mean you waft pass this one. Memories are amazing. Evidence of memories, even better. It’s important to mentally and physically capture moments. Moments of everything. Carry a camera. So that you can look back and relive. Collect movie tickets ( i collect fortunes from cookies too), remnants from an awesome day, anything and everything that can remind you to what a wonderful time you had.


Karaoke.

Try IT. and LOVE IT.


Run, work out, work hard.

Your body is a temple. It’s sacrosanct. It deserves to be nurtured (after all the alcoholic destruction :P) Work out. It’s good for you.


Be happy.

Because you need to be. Someone out there hopes that you always will be.

=) Love

P

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Untangling the tangled

How often do you ignore the minor tangling in your earphones only to get frustrated when you have to untangle a huge mess at a later point of time (Usually when the tangling makes it impossible to use)? Often in my case.

Life can be perceived as a set of earphones. The more we wait to solve the minor issues in life, the more we live an unhappy life. The more we choose to ignore the minor issues, the more frustrated we get at a late point in life.

So, whats the solution?
It must be intuitive by now : Get rid of the minor issues as they come up. Ignorance is a disease. Act and solve the problem as it comes.

Putting away these minor issues thinking that they too little for your attention is a dangerous thought. A thought which should have no place in our lives.

It is important that we unplug from our day to day lives and sort out the small little things which have been bothering us. These things will let you to a path of self-realization and happiness. Life isn't about reaching a desired destination, it is about enjoying the journey to that destination. Don't be so caught up to reach that destination that you forget to enjoy the beautiful part of life : The Journey.

Starting today, heck, starting NOW, sit back and think about the possible issues in your life that need your attention and have been ignored because they are just too small! Unplug yourself from the world, recreate the magic in your lives. Do whatever you should in order to solve these issues and stay happy! Choose your way!

After all, who doesn't love a perfectly untangled earphones.

After all, who doesn't love to live a happy life.

L O L :)


Thursday, February 3, 2011

Control

How many times in life have you felt frustrated?

How many times in life have you felt helpless?

How many situations in life have made you fill with anger?

How many situations in life have made you feel worthless?

All these situations have one thing in common : You were trying to control something that is not meant to be controlled by you.

You have to understand and accept the fact that you cannot control everything.
The sooner you let go, the happier you will be.

All those feelings can be avoided if you just try and perfect whatever is in your control.
Hard Work. Determination. Positive thinking. Diligence. All these will be required to perfect things that are in your control.

Once you learn to ignore things that fall outside your spectrum, you guarantee yourself a peaceful and a happier life.

So, the next time you feel frustrated, angry, helpless or worthless, just try to divide the situation into things that fall in your control and things that are outside your spectrum.
Once you have done that, work on the things that were within your control and completely forgot about the others. (Get up. Act. Execute. Change it.)
(The division can be achieved by asking yourself the simple question : Is it in my control?)

For example -

You can do nothing about a closed one's death! You just got to accept it, pray for them and move on! However, the one thing that is in your control is to express your emotions. Don't bottle 'em up. It will explode. So, just express these emotions. (Thank you EternallyBuzzing)

Don't fret over the fact that a relationship is not working, instead do whatever you can to make it work :)

L O L :)

Monday, January 24, 2011

Life is a Competition

Dear Gemini,

Life is a competition. A competition not with your roommate, not with your classmate, not with your friends, not with a stranger. It is a competition with yourself. Every time you are down and out, you have to compete with yourself to come back strong. Thats the competition I am talking about, thats where you need to focus.

Competing with others is the most disgraceful thing you can do with your life. There are three possibilities in competing with others -
1. You feel that you are far ahead of your competitors, and thus you tend to slack. This feeling of winning against others will make sure you never realize your true potential. NEVER. EVER.
2. You feel that you are far behind from your competitions, and thus you give up. This feeling of worthlessness will also make sure you never realize your true potential. NEVER. EVER.
3. You are on par with your competition. This is as worthless as the other two, because your actions will be based on the fact that you want to win the competition, and not what you feel/think is the right thing to do. Choosing a path for the sake of just merely winning against someone else will also make sure you never realize your true potential. NEVER. EVER.

Three different possibilities and three exactly same outcomes. Do you want these outcomes? If yes, then stop reading and compete.

IF NO, then STOP COMPETING and START LIVING.

Life is not a race to be won, in fact it is a journey. The destination does not matter, its the journey that has to be beautiful and satisfying. There is no finish line. There is no end. You live till you die. For that to happen, stop competing!

There is a volcano of thoughts inside everyone. The volcano of thoughts will be different in each of the case (The three cases) if you are competing -
1. If you are winning, the volcano will be of proud feelings and thoughts. But, let me tell you, it is short lived. For you may soon be competing with someone else in your head. Its all in your head.

2. If you are losing, the volcano will of worthless feelings and negative thoughts. I don't need to explain what this could do to a person.

3. If you are on par, the volcano will be of stressful feelings because of the tight competition you are having in your head.

All these three volcanoes is not what God created us for.
She created us to have a volcano of passion and positive energy. It was created to be full of vibrant and beautiful ideas. For this to happen, you have to start competing with yourself.

Before you go to bed tonight, take an oath - Whatever happens in life, I will also be competing with myself to realize true potential. For there is no better feeling than believing that you lead a life full satisfaction. A life without regrets. A life so beautiful, that you don't want to change a single thing. A life so meaningful.

A life full of love, harmony, peace and humor.

On that note, stop all the competition with others. Start a lifelong competition with yourself. DO IT NOW.

LOL (Lots of Love),
Taurus

Saturday, January 22, 2011

What does it mean to Love someone?

I was recently asked - What does it mean to Love someone?
The first reaction when I heard this question was to ignore it, for I didn't want to open my box of emotions and answer this question.

Second Reaction,

Loving someone is the most immaculate feeling in life.
It is skipping a heartbeat when you hear something you want to.
It is having a heartache when you hear something you don't want to.
It is like proving the world that the earth is flat in order to keep that someone happy.
It is sleeping on that someone's lap and being at peace with life.

It is the feeling of extreme joy, pleasure, happiness!

It is the dream of hearing back the three magical words.
It is about making that someone smile.
And doing things to sustain that smile.
It is about smiling every time you think about that someone.
It is about wanting to talk without having anything to talk about.
It is about the unconditional care, love and support.
It is about going to the extreme of sacrificing the love in order to keep that someone comfortable/happy.

It is about being friends before loving each other.

It is about hugging that someone, kissing their forehead, and saying - " I love you. It's like a dream come true. Lets grow old together :)"

If ever this thought comes in your mind -
Today, I wish I didn't love her. Every day I try to convince myself that I don't. And I've done a good job fooling others. All I need now is to fool myself - (MMT)

Then keep this in mind -
If you stop listening to your heart, then it will stop speaking to you. You shouldn't try to fool yourself into feeling something you don't. Or rather, you shouldn't try to fool yourself into not feeling something that you do. Your emotions will run numb if you succeed, and that's worse than the pain you are feeling now. Please try to find another way. You won't regret it.

Remember, Love just happens! Don't try to force it. It's all destined. Be what you are and you shall be rewarded with someone who loves as much as you do.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Omens

I have always believed in Omens from the bottom of my heart.
Recently, I have been wanting to do a particular thing, and somehow the omens have not supported me. I can't define omens, its just a message by god in the most possible way to tell you if you should continue doing it or stop pursuing the task.
However, the weakness of will has been tough to overcome. Especially because that is something I have been wanting to do for a couple years. And, that 'want' of doing something has been sealed in a box and that box has been thrown at an unreachable point in my body till the time I lie down on my bed and call it a night. After that its a mess. A big mess.

And, I am still confused to let it out or to keep it in.


Sunday, December 20, 2009

India!!

Again.

I can't express the feelings in writing.

A few words that explain my break -

Family.
Work (For the first time)
My New Car (Well, it looks new)
Poker
Quorum
Drives
Dinners
Flavors
Midnight Cafe
NYE'10
Research :(
FOOD

That's all I can think as of now.

Have a Happy New year.


Wednesday, December 16, 2009

The Box of Emotions.

Once upon a time......

There was a boy named Mikhail who lived in this/his happy world. A small city, which promises a lot of love is where he was settled in. The city had enloped him in its charm and happiness and never ceases to do that till now. After years of living away from home in a renowned boarding school, he met this girl, named Jenna, in his new school. They met through common friends, but soon became such good friends, that the common friends were forgotten. It wasn't love, it was just happiness that surrounded their relationship.

They would laugh together, cry together, make others laugh and make others cry. They were partners in crime. They lived, they talked, they lived to talk. The world around them was Perfect, coz they only cared about the world which surrounded them.

For the world, Mikhail and Jenna were too good a friends to remain friends. Mikhail was a nice hearted guy, who till then didnt know what hate meant. He had a sort of dysfucntional background, and Jenna was the one that he shared his world with. Every bit of emotion, every moment of joy, every moment of life was shared. Jenna, on the other hand,was someone,Someone that Mikhail had no clue about. He thought he knew her, but, unfortunately that wasn't the case. Jenna for him that time was someone who was innocent, honest and caring. She loved getting pampered and Mikhail loved pampering her. In short, it was just a perfect relationship.

Soon enough, it was that time of their lives where they had to part ways. They entered two different worlds, very different from their previous one. This was too small a change for their relationship to break down. They kept going strong and overcoming several obstacles like time, differences and difference in time and difference in the environment. Mikhail made sure that the differences don't create a dent in the relationship. Difference in environment is what decides how we evolve as a human being. Needless to say, they were in totally different environments and thus were evolving as different beings.

This went on for year, after which unfortunate/fortunate things gave them a change to reunite and reignite their friendship. This reunion was meant to be at the place where Mikhail had lived for the past year. Mikhail had grown himself to get accustomed to the place and was in love with it. He had everything he desired/dreamt of at that place. Everything. He was apprehensive about being reunited with Jenna, because he had evolved in a different environment, with wonderful people. But, he was still excited to be reunited.

Both of them were way too excited to be with each other again and be a part of each others presence again. The reunion was fantastic. They met, they ate, they laughed, they talked, they lived, they lived to talk. Again. This went on for an year, the year was a roller coaster ride for both of 'em. A ride where they savored the ups and stood through during the downs.

Their stars had decided to exchange places by the end of the year. They were about to be separated again and this time, the places were swapped. Mikhail went to a place where Jenna had lived for an year. Mikhail, went in with a lot of expectations, a lot of determination, a lot of motivation. Jenna, on the other hand, was well settled in the place she lived with Mikhail for an year. She was in love with the place and with the people. Mikhail was sad to leave Jenna and his old memories of the place, but was excited for the start of something new in life.
Mikhail found it tough to accept the change in environment, he was still in love with his past. He found it hard to live in a new place without any mental, emotional or moral support. For the first time in his life he 'felt' alone. Previously, he had always lived away from family but with a family of friends. So this change was too big a thing for him to handle. He broke down. He was shattered. But, he had Jenna on his side. Or so he thought.

To his utter surprise, Jenna has decided to step out of Mikhail's box (Read as Heart) of emotions. Why? Mikhail still doesn't know the answer. Mikhail was ignored, reminded of the Time difference, reminded of the fact that Jenna has her life too. Mikhail found it hard to survive a single day. He wasn't used to such a lifestyle. Mikhail found it tough to believe, for him it was like a bad dream, which he thought will soon get over. But it never did, for Jenna had decided to step into a new venture with some one else. Mikhail often found this upsetting, for he was insecure that he might lose Jenna. But, he also knew that Jenna was not doing anything wrong. He asked for time to accept it, but Jenna was too tight on schedule to give him his time. And, thus Mikhail's box of emotion was left with a void. A void that made it tough for him to survive. He didn't give up for the longest time. But, when he gave up, there was no chance for Jenna to re-enter and affect Mikhail's life any bit.

Mikhail took a long time to come out of this shock and realize that Jenna had decide to step out. Mikhail had finally decided that he will fight it out without her. It was not as if he didn't have other friend. In fact, he did have a lot of wonderful friends, but it was his attachment with Jenna that made him suffer. Jenna was well settled with her new life, and Mikhail was still finding it tough to survive. But, for Mikhail it had been a learning curve. A curve that taught him a lot. A lot more than he couldn't have seen if he didn't go through the rough patch.
Soon Mikhail was accepting things as they were, learning to live life as it was. That void was teaching him things, making him stronger each day. Slowly, but surely the void was replaced by Love, harmony, peace and Humor. With happiness, work, family and friends. But Mikhail learned it the hard way, that the void in the box of emotions should not be dominated by a single person. In fact, it should never be dominated by a person. He learned the hard way, that things come and go.

He finally understands that - 'Times change, years change, priorities change, people change, friends change, bes of friends change, But that one thing remains the same, 'The Box of emotions'. Thus, he has since been trying to understand the working of the most wonderful creation of God, 'The Box of Emotions.' And, thats how he defines his Self-realization, which is his ultimate goal in life.


* All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real person, living or dead, is purely coincidental.
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Thursday, September 17, 2009

What if?

What if life wasn't as tough as it is right now?? What if it was just so simple that it could be described in 6 words - Yes, True, White and No, False, Black?? No consequences, no fears, no hatred.

You would be sleeping at nights without the thought of the constant fears that have been embedded in your mind through various sources : Experiences, pessimism, Love, hatred, belief.

You would be happy without having the fear of being sad.

You would not have 'What if' questions in your life.

You will do what you wish to do and not what others wish you should do.

You will for once have the daring to do what you always wished you should have done, coz deep down, you and me realise that there is something that you think you should have done, but couldn't because of the circumstances.



Why is that everytime I think I am moving forward, something pulls me back and whips my butt to say, enough of your happiness, deal with this now.

Why the fuck do I have alternate between two extremely opposite zones?

Why is good followed by bad??

I have read many inspiring quotes about, ' How whatever happens, happens for good.'
And, How there is nothing a called a bad experience, it just is. Maybe its all good.'

But, when something hits you, you are too drained to incorporate these sayings in your mind and heart.

I agree, these sayings will help me come out of the shock, but what about right now?
What do I do?

My thoughts are all messed up right now.

Think from your mind, but let your hear lead is what I always believe in. And, my heart is too weak to handle all these pressures and news that is attached to life by default.

It's like, God first made a perfect life and then seeing that it was just too perfect, she added all those little shockers in between.

Just to keep a balance??
Who needs this kind of balance? Do you? As of now, I don't.

I need Joy. I need fresh air. I need Happiness. I need laughter.
Where can I find these things??

Only if there was a definite answer to this.

If you have one, share it with me and I shall promise to keep you happy always.

I guess, it's life.


Thursday, July 9, 2009

A month long break -

-From posting on my blog.
- In India.

To reason the first one, I would just say, I had a writing class this summer and that took away all my thoughts.

And to do justice to the second one, I would just say, everm minute will be precious. My Precious.

But, I am writing this to help myself remember a Resolve that I just made.
----- I am going to control my anger to the maximum possible extent, and at any circumstance, I won't shout at someone. ( exception - the extremes, I know there might be some)

But, I will be the perfect blend of Happy-go-Lucky and 'Do I really care'.

I know where to derive my happiness from and I know when to forget about my hatred.


Happiness -
Home
My room
Celebrity ( witht someone who beats me to eat more - or atleast I make it a point to say so)
Drives ( For a Mild)
Dinners ( With lots of debates)
Poker (With lots of cheating)
Quorum ( With lots of Alcohol)
Lotus Hut (I guess)
Music
And KASOL. (Sab khulle khulle hoke jayenge)

Anger-

Wait, What???
Didn't I just say that there is no place for Anger.
As I said, I will be in 'Do-I-Really-Care' mode.

Wasssssssup Indoree???




Monday, June 8, 2009

If

A beautilfu poem by Rudyard Kipling which he wrote for his son.

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream -- and not make dreams your master;
If you can think -- and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings -- nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run –
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And -- which is more -- you'll be a Man, my son!


Had read this a long time back, but never understood it the way I do now.


Friday, June 5, 2009

_____ Random things about myself.

Warning : It may get really random.

1. I didn't know how to ride a bike till 9th grade. (Better late than never)

2. I was very particular in the beds I chose in my hostel at the begining of the year, so much so that I used to go to the hostel 1 day before the holidays ended.

3. I can't get over hide and seek. I still love that game.

4. I had no real 'Ambition' like to be a pilot or a doctor or engineer etc. that all most all of us have during the age 9-12. The first biggest ambition that was forced on me was to become an engineer from IIT. 11th grade made me realise what it took to be an IITian and thus I dropped that. Since then I have had many ambitions/dreams and if given a choice to go back I would want to be a writer or a tennis player or a football player or a basketball player (latest). Though I love cricket, I wouldn't want to be a cricket player.

5. I love black and white. ( This supports my theory of living in extremes)

6. I love driving alone.

7. I do pre-writing for my blog posts and that is mostly when I am in bed and/or when I am taking a shower.

8. I love to play dark-room alone. A game where you play hide and seek with your thoughts when you are on bed.

9. There is atleast 4 and a half crucial things about me that a friend of mine doesn't know. But everyone combined, they know everything I know about myself and may be more.

10. I love my old high-school. I wish I studied there for 11th and 12th too.

11. I waited for school atheletics meet as one waits to see a world cup.

12. I never took part in any kind of sport till 11th grade.

13. Ironical it may seem, but I secured the highest marks in Physical Education in CBSE board exams in India.

14. I love the fact that I was raised up in Indore and not any metropolitan cities. I have my reasons for it.

15. I sleep at 3.00 am or later atleast 14 days in a month.

16. I am different a personality with different people. I feel that different people should be treated differently.

17. I love to love and I love to hate too.

18. I get obsessed with a song for a month and then don't feel like listening to it the next time it comes up randomly.

19. I would like my child to be a football player.

20. I use only one side of my mouth and the other side very occasionally. But for a particular meal, I NEVER use both sides of my mouth.

21. I have twitch in my head, a double twitch (if thats somehting) as it makes me shake my head towards left and right both.

22. I have irresistable desire to buy a shirt that has thin stripes on a white background and a black polo.

23. If I were to open a NGO I would open a anti-racist orgnaization.

24. I was like oone of the most innoncent guy till 10th grade (or thats what they thought) and when I shifted to a new school the perception of people has changed completely.

25. I have once stapled my thumb.

26. The first cricket memory I can date back to is the 1996 world cup and have followed almost every cricket series after that.

27. I love my major, I mean I can't think I would love any other major if I was pursuing that.

28. I am a cusp of a Taurus and gemini and I don't know what it signifies. What I know is I surely have 2 different personlaities. I love to be in a huge group of ppl and I love to stay alone. Depends on my mood.

29. If I were to die and if it was my last day, I would write a book on my experiences in life. It would be titled 'Life : A roller coaster.'

30. I have am interested in greek and roman history more than I am interested in the present condtions of Europe.

31. Thats all the pre-wrting I had done for now and shall add more If I think something new.





Tuesday, May 19, 2009

For Old times sake!!

For which options would you like to go back in time using a time machine -

1. The day when you first rode on a bicycle without any support.

2. When you distributed chocolates in School on your birthday wearing a party dress.

3. Playing on the slide at Montessori school.

4. Playing random games in your free time at school.

5. Going for your first movie with your friends.

6. When you spoke you first abusive word.

7. When you had your first birthday party with your friends.

8. When you got the most awesome toy you always wanted.

9. When you talked to your first crush.

10. Your first fight at the school.

10.1 . Your first burnt fire cracker ( Except Ful Jhadi)

11. When collected Tazos and cricket cards as if those things will make you a millionaire.

12. When you joined your first Music/Dance/ Sports camp at summers.

13. When you asked out your first girlfriend.

14. When you thought that your friend group ruled the school.

15. When you bunked you first class.

16. When you thought of gifts to give to your friends and choosing the one you thought was the best.

17. When you got a grade in 10th.

18. When you lived the 11th and 12th life.

19. When you won some prize at school. (I got the first one for fancy dress, I dressed as Lord Krishna :-D)

20. When you got a real nice birthday gift.

21. When you had your first night stay at a friends place.

22. When you got into a college.

23. When you started living your own life at college without any tension (i.e, life before first exams of college)

24. When you attended the first party at your college.

25. When you asked out a girl at your college.

26. The college ragging.

27. The first apartment.

28. The first trip with your college friends.

29. Various other trips with your college friends.

30. Cricket games at college. (Penthouse)

31. Your first Diwali/New years/Holi out of home.

32. Your first Real love. (or thats what you thought it was)

33. Your first Drunken night.

34. Your first Black out night.

35. Your first date.

36. Your first fight with a professor.

37. Your first real realisation of how the world can be bad and how the people can be even worse.

38. Your first farewell (School or college)

39. -----------------------------------



What would you go back in time for.