You would be sleeping at nights without the thought of the constant fears that have been embedded in your mind through various sources : Experiences, pessimism, Love, hatred, belief.
You would be happy without having the fear of being sad.
You would not have 'What if' questions in your life.
You will do what you wish to do and not what others wish you should do.
You will for once have the daring to do what you always wished you should have done, coz deep down, you and me realise that there is something that you think you should have done, but couldn't because of the circumstances.
Why is that everytime I think I am moving forward, something pulls me back and whips my butt to say, enough of your happiness, deal with this now.
Why the fuck do I have alternate between two extremely opposite zones?
Why is good followed by bad??
I have read many inspiring quotes about, ' How whatever happens, happens for good.'
And, How there is nothing a called a bad experience, it just is. Maybe its all good.'
But, when something hits you, you are too drained to incorporate these sayings in your mind and heart.
I agree, these sayings will help me come out of the shock, but what about right now?
What do I do?
My thoughts are all messed up right now.
Think from your mind, but let your hear lead is what I always believe in. And, my heart is too weak to handle all these pressures and news that is attached to life by default.
It's like, God first made a perfect life and then seeing that it was just too perfect, she added all those little shockers in between.
Just to keep a balance??
Who needs this kind of balance? Do you? As of now, I don't.
I need Joy. I need fresh air. I need Happiness. I need laughter.
Where can I find these things??
Only if there was a definite answer to this.
If you have one, share it with me and I shall promise to keep you happy always.
I guess, it's life.
